Gray way

I exploded inside.
Showed no emotions outside
I had no control,
dreams went to black hole.

I needed a word
to fix my world.
To mend the soul
and melt the cold.

I needed a getaway
I needed a peace
to make peace
with my true face.

I always obeyed
to the system
like a gray shade
walked and whispered

Love to hate,
Smile to sob.
White to black,
better to worse.

How long can I
toss this life?
Til I beat
the self strife?

Pray for redemption
for things I haven't done
and go to the same direction
as everyone?

7.07.2015